AMHERST, N.Y. — It isn't easy for J. Carroll Becker to stand outside Christ the King School in Amherst.
It was here that, back in 1955, the then 5-year-old Becker says she was sexually abused by her first grade teacher, a member of the Franciscan Sisters of Allegany.
Becker says on multiple occasions she had wet her pants after the nun verbally abused her during class.
"She had sent me home the first two times to get changed. The third time she grabbed my arm and took me to the convent and said we were going to her cell," said Becker.
The cell she was referring to was the nun's bedroom where Becker says the nun took her and sodomized her with a crucifix.
The nun said the action "would cure me from defiling God's property, then she put a pair of her underwear on me and made me sit the rest of class," said Becker.
Becker had disassociated the abuse and was unable to report it.
"I was moved by all the men coming out with their stories and everything and I said what about the women, what about the nuns," said Becker.
Earlier this year, Becker disclosed her abuse in a meeting with the head of the Franciscan Sisters, Sr. Margaret Mary Kimmins, and says she was met with hostility and intimidation similar to that of her childhood abuser.
"She grabbed two straight back armless chairs and put them knee to knee in the middle of the room and said I think we'll be most comfortable here," said Becker.
"Now the congregational leader pulls the same stunt in terms of intimidation...it's outrageous," said Road to Recovery founder, Robert Hoatson.
During that meeting Becker learned the nun left the Franciscan Sisters in 1982 and later died.
Without her abuser to answer for her crimes, Becker sought compensation from the congregation but was told she would get nothing.
"She never apologized or said anything of remorse or anything," said Becker.
Now she’s calling on not only the Sisters, but the Diocese of Buffalo, which still operates Christ the King, to make amends.
"The Catholic Church is the most powerful and rich organization in the world and they need to take responsibility for what their representatives do," said Becker.
In a statement a spokesperson with the Franciscan Sisters says they are aware of the allegations, are investigating and will not comment further at this time.
The Diocese of Buffalo declined to comment.